Passion

Per Merriam-Webster online, passion is, among other things,:

- intense, driving, overmastering feeling or conviction
- ardent affection
- an object of desire or interest

The synonyms mean intense emotion compelling action.

That is what I desire. Specifically passion for God. I read another's blog, and I sense her passion. I hear someone's story, and feel the passion. I feel that missing from life for me right now. You would think after all we've been through in the last couple of years I would be very passionate; however it's easy to feel the dailiness of life has sucked a lot of the passion out of me. This week, in particular, has been trying with varying degrees of illness among most of us. Most days I find the goal is simply making it to bedtime - the kids' bedtime no less.

Passion...that is what I long for, but fear asking God for more of it. Many of those I know with such intense passion have endured some insanely tough trials. Personally, I'm tired of the trials. I'm ready for those still waters and green pastures. But passion often comes from suffering.

Passion is what I desire. True, heart-aching, soul-burning passion.

What do I want more: tranquility or passion for God?