5 months already?

My baby turns 5 months old tomorrow. She's sleeping in her crib for the first time tonight. It's way past time, but various reasons kept it from happening until now. Funny how I told Clay earlier today that it needed to happen soon or we would never get her out of our room...then when I decided just to take the plunge and do it, I found myself wanting to hold her longer while my heart ached that my baby is as old as she is. Everything with Mr. J was so special since we thought he may be our only child...the child we waited so long for. Miss E cried so much and slept so little that her first year of life is mostly a blur. Now, McK truly may be our last child. That possibility gives me pause so many times...like tonight. Will I ever have an infant sleeping in my room again? McK's at such a fun stage - she's becoming more aware of her surroundings each day and LOVES her brother and sister. Nothing makes her smile bigger. She's all about grabbing at whatever she can get her hands on and she's even sat up by herself! She's not rolled over yet, but her tummy time is limited thanks to her active siblings. After a few weeks of being a drama gal, she has relaxed into an easy-going chica. I can't believe she's been with us 5 months already!

The last few weeks have been full of pondering for me. If you've read my blog much at all, you know that dates often give me pause. I find myself reflective and often too analytical for my own good. The last few weeks are no different as we turned a leaf on a new year and marked some not-so-great anniversaries (not to mention the 25+ hours we spent driving!). 2009 was not a stellar year...honestly, the birth of McK and marking 10 years of marriage are truly the highlights of a pretty dark, stormy year. But through the storm, I've learned a lot about myself, my relationships, and most importantly, God.

Well, my musing has been interrupted by a little girl who woke up in an unfamiliar place.

Off to hold on to her infancy a little longer...