A new day

Mercy, I've started this post about 17 times in my head or maybe it's just been 17 different posts! I am the consummate editor, and I think I am hardest on myself. I've even revisited my last post wondering if I should edit it for fear people think I'm on the brink of losing it, that my marriage is in trouble, that I'm about to ship my kids off to boarding school, or worse. None of those are true - well, at least I don't think I'm on the brink of losing it! So if this seems pretty disjointed, I apologize. It's just a sneak peek into what my brain and heart are really like - God bless my husband for trying to sort it all out and for simply hanging on when he can't. God knew I would need a patient, non-combative partner...and that is exactly what He gave me.

How thankful I am for a new day. A chance to start over. A chance to give the day to God and allow Him to live through me instead of trying it all on my own.

Do you know what I am listening to right now? NOTHING!!! Both of my children are asleep and have been that way for 2 hours. Thank you, God. Now it did take a trip to the mall to play and eat Chick-Fil-A (that was an adventure for another day) followed by about a 30 minute drive home. Yes, there are closer malls, but I picked this one just for that reason. A longer drive home gives more time for them to fall asleep. I needed them to nap today. They needed to nap today. The boy had another rough night so I was willing to do whatever it took so he could get the sleep he desperately needs. It paid off.

I know some of you are wondering why I'm not sleeping; but strangely, today I am not all that tired. And part of me hates to miss this time all to myself. I've enjoyed the quiet and God has spoken right to my soul through His Word and others. It never ceases to amaze me how He gives me just what I need when I take the time to sit at His feet. It shouldn't amaze me that He gives me good things, but for some reason it always does.

Now I'm drawing a blank as to all the other fabulously insightful things I was going to share so I guess I'll just leave you with two links that touched my heart today:

http://www.crosswalk.com/devotionals/encouragement/11574516/
http://audreycaroline.blogspot.com/2008/04/tilted.html